My name is Ruthie Lamb and I am the mother of Austin and Andrew who are 9 and 6 years old. I’m 39 and have been pursuing my dream to be a successful recording artist for over 10 years. It was out of devastation, from losing my first two children during pregnancy, that I had found my singing voice. During that time my focus was only on becoming a mother. After losing my second baby at almost 5 months, it forced me to go deep within myself and find out who I really was inside. Singing was always something I had wanted to do secretly but I never did anything about it because I let fear get in the way.
My two unborn children helped me find my voice and Austin and Andrew help me sustain it. My drive and passion come from deep within me and from my children’s inspiration. They are my biggest fans and won’t let me quit. How can I teach them to go after their dreams one day if I don’t continue following my own. It has been a difficult road and I have been rejected over and over by the music industry, for one reason, my age! I was told at 29, that I would never make it because I was too old.
Well, I strongly believe that where there is a will there is a way and with hard work, focus and a lot of faith anything is possible, even the impossible. I was told by many vocal teachers, when I started on this path, that because of my age it was too late to train my voice and it would be too difficult to change old habits. Well, I proved them wrong.
I was told by many different people that if I didn’t play some kind of instrument, I could not possibly write a song. Well, I have written many, many songs. The first song I wrote came from the loss of my second child. I called it a “Mother’s Love Untold”. Another one of my songs was written while taking a flight to L.A. and in the air, I began writing the song, “City of Lost Souls”. As I was writing the song I felt there was some kind of divine intervention. It was written in 10 minutes and on the top of the paper I wrote 9/11. It was only in that moment I realized the song was about the tragedy of 9/11.
I am doing this video in honor of my late mother Carmela Lamb who died two years ago on April 4, 2007. I gained my strength and perseverance by watching my mother work hard while dealing with her polio handicap. She was told she would never get married and could never have children. She had two children with my father who looked past her handicap and saw the woman she was.
For many years she told me to share my story with Oprah. I finally wrote Oprah a letter because of a dream I had on April 3rd which was the day before my mum’s anniversary of her death. Oprah and my mother were in the dream and I knew as soon as I woke up, I had to write her.
In my dream my mum told me it was time for me to walk up to Oprah and introduce myself. We were in a room with about 50 people in it and an entertainer in a white shirt had just finished singing. He was a very tall man he looked like Luther Vandross. Oprah had on a white top as well and my mum, who was about my age in the dream, was wearing a cowboy hat, cowboy boots, brown leather jacket, jeans and also had on a white top. When I approached Oprah our eyes locked and became watery. We held hands and then all of a sudden a star burst of light came between us. We spoke no words. I then hugged her and felt the same feeling I did when I used to hold my mother. We both felt a very deep spiritual connection. It was a very magical and spiritual moment. I felt safe and happy.
I have completed my mother’s wish and desire to contact Oprah and this video is in honor of her with mother’s day approaching and for all the people in the world who dare to dream the impossible dream.
I would like to share a song with you that came to me in a dream 6 months after my mum died. It’s called “Never Forget”
Thank you… Peace and Love, Ruthie Lamb
Written on April 4, 2009